The July issue of Simple Grace features the incredible story of Terri Roberts, the mother of the Amish shooter, as she struggled to come to terms with her son's actions and find peace with the community around her. Here, she opens up about the immediate aftermath of the shooting
The day of the shooting, their quiet street was overrun with media vans and police cars. Reporters crowded Terri’s yard, hungry for comments from the murderer’s family. They fired hateful questions and harassed anyone who came to offer support. But it wasn’t the reporters who weighed on Terri’s heart.
"I was devastated for our Amish neighbors whom we loved dearly," Terri says. “I thought they’d see us as the cause of their pain—the parents of a monster."
Terri couldn’t fathom how Charlie could’ve done such a horrendous thing. "Charlie never had any issues I could see," Terri explains. "He had a wonderful wife and beautiful kids. His evil actions that day just didn’t match the man I knew."
And now not only was her beloved son—whom she’d always known as a caring, loving soul—gone forever, God seemed to be gone too. "God had always been the rock I could lean on, but through my sobs and rage, I began to wonder if I knew Him at all. I was furious with Charlie—and angry at God too," Terri admits. "I kept shouting inside myself, Where were you, God?! You knew what Charlie was planning to do. How could You let this happen?"
Read the rest of Terri's story and how she forgave the unforgivable in the July issue of Simple Grace, on sale now and in her memoir Forgiven.